urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:totalsikeout thrashin since '83... thrashin since '83... 2008-10-20T23:44:23Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:totalsikeout:69476 2007-11-30T07:16:34Z 2008-10-20T23:44:23Z on another pic note, i have the best hair colorist on the planet. <br />no one retouched this in photoshop. she's just that excellent<br />and i still hate photoshoots!<br /><br /><img src="http://i65.photobucket.com/albums/h216/rightinthefamilyjewels/firefire.jpg" width="400"><br /><br /><br />ready for LA urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:totalsikeout:67256 2007-05-11T22:41:52Z 2007-05-11T22:41:52Z i dont know why i have this silly thing anymore. i doubt anyone reads it. perhaps one day i'll get so bored i go re-read old entries and realize precisely how lame i really am. i have a pretty good idea for now but i bet i'll need affirmation one day. <br />anyway. <br />its may 12 and i still havent paid my rent. thats one serious pro about where i live. my landlord lets me pay literally whenever i feel like it. he called me today just to make sure i was alive since he hasnt seen me around in a week. i assumed he was calling about the rent so i immediately apologized for the delay, only for him to respond "no i wasnt calling about that at all dear. you take your time, relax, enjoy your trip, and come see me whenever you're back and unpacked. there's great weather to return to"<br />perfect. <br /><br />bamboozle/new jersey was insane and the absolute best time ever. <br />i would almost positively move to california [not l.a.] to be around rob and kali on a more consistent basis. <br />such genuinely wonderful people and i cant stress it enough. same for ross. he makes me smile. <br />people with good hearts are a dying breed and it really lifted my spirits to be around them, and also meet some new people i feel the same way about. <br /><br />after a really split decision in new york city, i bailed on matty [which i felt super bad about] and flew to georgia. some serious r&r and hang time with my dog in the squelching heat was exactly what i needed. <br />my new friend from bamboozle also happened to be in town and we went to the ga aquarium. it was really enjoyable and my company was even more so. we have way too much in common. <br /><br />so now im sitting at starbucks since my mom doesnt really even know what the internet is catching up on jewelry email and drinking an iced soy chai. ive always been a fan of the warm soy chai but kali turned me onto the iced version for summer. im doomed. its so good. <br />the lady at starbucks right now is talking about how the best concert she ever went to was cheap trick. <br />she has to be at least 40. what a legit barista. <br />"can you imagine when i graduated bob seger's band was touring with the stones and no one even knew who he was?"<br />she definitely just dated herself. graduated in '76. haha. <br /><br />anyway. im in such a perfect spot in life right now. <br />positive mental attitude. <br /><br />cant wait to bike to the beach every day starting tomorrow<br />bjork tomorrow too!<br /><br />california and new york [for real] both in june. <br />new tattoos in cali and catching up with old friends. <br /><br />im lucky. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:totalsikeout:66992 2007-04-27T10:35:22Z 2007-04-27T10:35:22Z ive been awake to see the sun rise for the past 5 days now. <br />enjoying being alone for once. <br /><br />does anyone know any good veggie or fruit smoothe recipes?<br />ive never had a veggie blend and im sticking to a mostly liquid diet to give my digestive system a much needed break. <br />im not sure where to get good recipes though..<br /><br />heavy eyes. <br />saved by the bell isnt on yet though which means more work until i fall asleep to the college years episodes urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:totalsikeout:65075 2007-02-01T01:20:25Z 2007-02-01T01:20:25Z chyeah!<br /><br />ps; im ridiculous!<br /><img src="http://patriciafield.com/ProductImages/kennethj_merch/KENNETHJTIGER_LARGE.gif"> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:totalsikeout:64623 2007-01-15T07:08:51Z 2007-01-15T13:49:10Z <img src="http://www.americanmafia.com/images/cwalker_10-31-05_Kuklinski.jpg"><br /><a href="http://www.freeinfosociety.com/site.php?postnum=112">http://www.freeinfosociety.com/site.php?postnum=112</a><br /><br />ive been watching a&e shows on this guy all day long. <br />the indifference in his expression and emotion, regarding killing over 100 people, is so eerie. <br />then i had to take a shower and got super nervous every time i closed my eyes. <br />im a 5 yr old. <br /><br />richard kuklinski killed with cyanide poisoning when he wasnt using guns.<br />now im learning about "meth psychosis". <br />earlier it was the herion "green alien" and other street drug "brands".<br />people's brains are so simultaneously fascinating and disappointing. <br /><br />a&e and multi grain cheerios are my rainy day jam.<br /><br /><br />also.. good things come to those who wait<br /><img src="http://images.channeladvisor.com/Sell/SSProfiles/50000018/Images/122/DIES100406_105808.Main.jpg"><br /><br />definitely couldnt care less if these are about two seasons ago. <br />so hot. cant even wait for 2nd day air to get on top of its a-game. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:totalsikeout:63874 2006-12-26T02:43:41Z 2006-12-26T02:48:46Z its always on my mind lately. <br />i thought i was trying to live with no regrets?<br />re-directing the focus but still finding my mind lingering on the "remember when's" and "where would we be today if's"<br />ho hum<br /><br />2006 was completely monumental for me. <br />lowest low to highest high all in about 4 months.<br />only going up from here. <br />im the happiest ive ever been in my entire life. <br />and i'll only share my cloud with one person. <br /><br />mad holiday shopping spree tomorrow. <br />bright and early. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:totalsikeout:63363 2006-11-30T23:31:19Z 2006-11-30T23:31:19Z <img src="http://www.paulkopeikingallery.com/artists/greenberg/exhibitions/endtimes/images/revleations.jpg"><br /><img src="http://www.paulkopeikingallery.com/artists/greenberg/exhibitions/endtimes/images/shock.jpg"><br /><img src="http://www.paulkopeikingallery.com/artists/greenberg/exhibitions/endtimes/images/violet_unless.jpg"><br /><img src="http://www.paulkopeikingallery.com/artists/greenberg/exhibitions/endtimes/images/torturemegan.jpg"><br /><img src="http://www.paulkopeikingallery.com/artists/greenberg/exhibitions/endtimes/images/trillions2flat.jpg"><br /><br /><b>jill greenberg.</b><br /><br />im not sad. <br />these kids only are because they had suckers taken away from them. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:totalsikeout:61945 2006-10-15T23:48:02Z 2006-10-15T23:48:02Z i hate going to shows yet ive been to about 4 in the past 5 days. <br /><br /><br />you wish i'd spill my guts about all the fun ive been having. <br /><br /><br />i need to start taking way more pictures. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:totalsikeout:61003 2006-09-29T06:04:28Z 2006-09-29T06:04:28Z maybe i never really did give myself enough credit. <br />two dudes i thought were unattainable clearly are. [attainable]<br />and ive already been told twice that im way better than both. <br />oh how the tables turn. <br />funny enough, now that i realize theyre completely within reach, im not interested.<br />go figure. <br /><br />i dont want to wake up at 8am. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:totalsikeout:60432 2006-09-16T19:29:46Z 2006-09-16T19:29:46Z a lot has been going on. <br /><br />atlanta to chicago and someone actually rode their bike all the way to midway to meet me. <br /><br />chicago to milwaukee. lane hang sesh at alterra by the lake [which i loved]. lots of brad time. king sized bed at la quinta inn with amanda. two seperate cars. two sbm shows... kinda.<br />dessert closet?<br />drove by some kite fest in the park that looked totally amazing.<br />super buzzed the entire time we ate dinner w/ brads sis. <br />[ooooopsies. sorry brad] <br /><br />milwaukee back to chicago and thats when i get strep throat. <br />2 shots of painkillers in one butt cheek and 1 shot of penicillin in the other.<br />fevers. thera flu. the same someone taking care of me. movies. whining. jamba.<br /><br />most of my time in chicago was wasted sleeping.<br />i did see 'azumi' and im pretty neutral on it. <br />it was your basic slasher/gorey/ultra cheesey asian kung fu film.<br />shopped a little and got my fill of lou malnattis.<br /><br />five days after the shots and i still have a swollen, bruised lump in my cheek where i got the shot.<br />what a ripoff.<br /><br />ive thought quite a bit about the people i know lately and all their complacency.<br />im removing myself from as much of it as possible because i know exactly where to find them if i ever want to get sucked back into the juvenile drama and gossip circles they thrive on. <br />its embarassing to think we're all in our early to mid-twenties and acting like 9th graders. <br />i still cant grasp how anyone can assess their day and deem it successful when it reads; work-party-bar-4am bar-sleep. <br />every single day. <br />im over it. and all of them.<br /><br />and something i was putting faith into ends just as it was beginning. <br />why should i be surprised?<br />god bless catastrophe. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:totalsikeout:58684 2006-07-30T07:49:26Z 2006-07-30T07:50:15Z 12hrs of tattooing.<br />my leg is the size of a linebacker.. though these pictures dont emphasize the swelling. <br />its on fire, bags of ice dont do anything, and im a teensy bit miserable. <br /><br /><img src="http://i24.photobucket.com/albums/c13/ald823/birdcolortwosmall.jpg"><br /><img src="http://i24.photobucket.com/albums/c13/ald823/birdcoloronesmall.jpg"><br />[note: under his face, on the chest is random ink smear. not actual/weird tattooed bit]<br /><br />hopefully i can still enjoy myself tomorrow.. seeing people i havent seen in over a year. <br /><br />the ONLY thing to drink in this apartment is water. its kinda bumming me out. <br /><br />complain as hard as you can? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:totalsikeout:58299 2006-07-06T08:06:24Z 2006-07-06T08:06:24Z mc hammer definitely looked me up and down for a good 45 seconds today. <br />best/creepiest moment of my life.<br /><br />almost. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:totalsikeout:55936 2006-05-27T01:37:05Z 2006-05-27T01:37:05Z divorced.<br /><br />life is so unfair. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:totalsikeout:53588 2006-03-19T04:46:46Z 2006-06-25T04:51:12Z somebody's got the best of me. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:totalsikeout:53096 2006-02-25T00:51:29Z 2006-02-25T00:51:29Z i swear im getting more hood rich every day. <br />my cell phone screen doesnt work at all, so i take my chances any time it rings. and the antenna is taped on with red electrical tape. <br />and now im wearing dunks...<br />what is this? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:totalsikeout:50291 2005-11-22T21:22:38Z 2005-11-22T21:22:38Z <img src="http://i24.photobucket.com/albums/c13/ald823/toastface.jpg" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com"><br />this makes me smile. <br />can you hear me smile over the phone? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:totalsikeout:49865 2005-11-09T23:20:50Z 2005-11-09T23:20:50Z you'd kill me if i told you. you should see me putting lightener and foils in my own hair right now. <br />it basically looks like an elementary childs valiant attempts to channel outer space via tin foil antennas. <br />killer. <br /><br />i have a crush and a half. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:totalsikeout:46661 2005-09-13T07:52:45Z 2005-09-13T07:52:45Z perusing the wreckage and assessing the devastation. <br /><br />i need a billion dollars. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:totalsikeout:45317 2005-08-26T20:20:09Z 2005-08-26T21:39:24Z i hate when being choked up not only makes your throat hurt but also gives you a <strike>head</strike>heartache. <br /><br />time for massive apartment cleaning and pretending like every single thing i see doesnt remind me of some special moment i shared with no one in particular. <br /><br />i think fall is coming!<br />i should probably start purchasing new winter jackets. <br />[dont you agree brad clifford? i mean,... we both know i dont have nearly enough to choose from as it is.]<br /><br />feet tattoos.<br /><br /><br />ps: make contact!<br /><br /><br />oh and here's the result from my first lomo attempt. <br />not great but not horrible. <br /><br /><br /><img src="http://i7.photobucket.com/albums/y289/gimme_those_tots/lomography/lomotwo.jpg" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com"><br /><img src="http://i7.photobucket.com/albums/y289/gimme_those_tots/lomography/lomoseven.jpg" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com"><br /><img src="http://i7.photobucket.com/albums/y289/gimme_those_tots/lomography/lomotwelve.jpg" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com"><br /><img src="http://i7.photobucket.com/albums/y289/gimme_those_tots/lomography/lomoeight.jpg" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com"><br /><img src="http://i7.photobucket.com/albums/y289/gimme_those_tots/lomography/lomonine.jpg" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com"><br /><img src="http://i7.photobucket.com/albums/y289/gimme_those_tots/lomography/lomosix.jpg" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com"><br /><img src="http://i7.photobucket.com/albums/y289/gimme_those_tots/lomography/lomofour.jpg" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com"><br /><img src="http://i7.photobucket.com/albums/y289/gimme_those_tots/lomography/lomoten.jpg" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com"><br /><img src="http://i7.photobucket.com/albums/y289/gimme_those_tots/lomography/lomoone.jpg" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com"><br /><img src="http://i7.photobucket.com/albums/y289/gimme_those_tots/lomography/lomofive.jpg" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com"><br /><img src="http://i7.photobucket.com/albums/y289/gimme_those_tots/lomography/lomothree.jpg" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com"><br /><img src="http://i7.photobucket.com/albums/y289/gimme_those_tots/lomography/lomoeleven.jpg" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com"> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:totalsikeout:44327 2005-08-17T16:50:14Z 2005-08-17T16:50:14Z i had a nightmare two nights ago. i was in a grocery store with one all glass wall behind me. as the lady was ringing me up [she was looking out the all the windows].. her face went completely blank and white, so i turned around to see what she was looking at. the building adjacent to the grocery store was an apartment complex and about six floors up we could see a guy stabbing someone to death. i mean, blood flinging off the knife and all. for some reason my dad was outside the grocery store and i was afraid the man was on a rampage and was about to come outside and kill him, and anyone else in his path. <br />it was scary. <br /><br />im supposed to be getting ready for work right now but i woke up a little earlier so now im wasting time... which means i'll inevitably be late to work as usual. <br />i slept really well though. no nightmares last night. and the headache that woke me up at 6am is gone, thankfully. <br /><br />i bought a bum a burger along with my lunch yesterday. <br />my birthday is next tuesday so im hoping karma will do its duty and someone will finally get me 'welcome to the dollhouse' on dvd. <br /><br />i just forgot i havent even dried my hair yet. <br />definitely gonna be late! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:totalsikeout:43614 2005-08-10T21:59:44Z 2005-08-10T21:59:44Z familiar but suddenly so foreign. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:totalsikeout:42159 2005-07-20T00:12:18Z 2005-07-20T00:12:18Z shannyn sossamon lost points with me yesterday after i learned that she named her son "audio science"<br />i mean, really... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:totalsikeout:41452 2005-07-15T14:37:31Z 2005-07-15T14:37:31Z imogen heap. already missing you. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:totalsikeout:41202 2005-07-13T06:42:15Z 2005-07-13T09:07:43Z im about to have a nervous breakdown. <br />im going bezerk.<br /><br /><br />in other news:<br /><a name="cutid1"></a><br /><img src="http://i7.photobucket.com/albums/y289/gimme_those_tots/milf.jpg" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com"><br />whats even better,... shes 36 in that picture. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:totalsikeout:40917 2005-07-10T19:45:22Z 2005-07-10T19:45:22Z etta james. ive been having a real hard time lately distinguishing whether something i experienced was a dream or reality. its getting annoying. that or my dreams have become incredibly dull. <br /><br />im in atlanta. <br />and i could strangle ryne pilcher sometimes. <br />i hope it isnt raining and ugly the whole time im here. <br />i really dont want to see "dark waters" [?] but its quality time with my mom and sis so i guess i gotta oblige. <br /><br />chinese buddha still rules. <br />im sure it always will.